I saw this side that no one else has…

but i guess it was a lie…

I feel like a nobody now…

my next goal in life is to show that anything you do, I can do better.

I am leaving the scene.

I don’t know when i’ll be back.

You will hear my name again… one day.

Things are naturally going to change, and there is no way to avoid that process.
 
I guess that’s one of my biggest fears in life; Dealing with change especially drastic change. At first you are at the top and then in a blink of an eye you are at the bottom and not sure how to climb back up. 

I decided to take a break from Djing starting in the month of may.

You will not see me out in the clubs.

It feels like I need to cut myself out of society… im not sure for how long but we will see.

1. These past three months has been hell and back.

2. I should of took that break more seriously I hate the feeling when you feel you are ready to go back but in reality you are not.

3. I wish things worked out…

4. I love my older brother Seelo Mondo, he has been there for me so many times but I should of listen to him more seriously, yes I am in regrets, I hate being so stubborn.

5. Mikey Wong gave me the best advice couple of weeks ago.. It was the first step to fix myself.

6. I should of kept my words in the beginning of 2012 in which I become more selfish.

7. I am now starting to build my guard up even more, I used to give people 100 percent my trust but now people will need to earn it.

8. I just like to help people that is all…

9. It’s been one month since i’ve been on it.. I am feeling a difference and its working.

10. It sucks how I was in that awkward position and it lead to negativity and it also sucks admiring someone for 7 years and realizing they are just a dick.

11. I’m in regrets neglecting the people who cared about me

12. I lost the one thing I love doing the most.

13. Maybe ill just let time take care of it.

14. The piece went missing again…

15. Thank you for your Love and Support: Salina Hua, Vanesa Taylor, Taylor Muller, Susan Dang, Mae Dao, Liz Kim, TJ Berkley, Veronica Weibs, Nicole Johnson, Sunny Ho - Don’t know what I can do without them.

16. To be used is necessary. If you can’t be used you’re useless.

17. Yes i was your punching bag for 1 year. Face the facts: I don’t need you. You need me. I still wish you the best in your life. Maybe one day you will realize what ive done for you.

18. Dilemmas.. oh I hate them.

19. The only happiness I can depend on is myself.

20. Why am i still around they ask? I really don’t know.

21. You can’t change baggage from the past.

22. These bad decisions i am making is really costing me a lot…